PERSONAL : New Beginnings

It's 1:07 A.M in the morning and I just can't sleep. Not really sure what's really going on in my mind but I guess it's time to play catch up. As some of you might have noticed, I haven't been vlogging for a while now. Mainly because I don't have a camera anymore. I don't want to go back to my laptop because of the quality. I'm trying to get my hands on some kind of device but to be honest I have so much going on right now. It's hard to make videos/edit/etc. There are so many stressful subjects on my mind like student loans, bills, personal life, etc.

I think the last time I mentioned my current job status was when I last worked at a law company. Law is totally not my cup of tea but it paid the bills. I was able to catch a break and enjoy NYC for a while. Things didn't work out and I'm no longer with the company.

Am I sad? No - because I was never happy there and the place didn't match up with my morals, goals, and ideas.

What am I doing now? Job hunting, interviews, freelance, and interning at shopmaeven.com (so excited).

Shopmaeven.com is this chic online vintage boutique that carries women's apparel and accessories. All products are so hip and modern. I was brought on as a stylist and will help out with the social media occasionally. Totally jumping for joy because you all know how much I love styling! I plan on updating behind-the-scenes images on my instagram (zabbbeyyy). Follow to stay updated.

Alright, that's all for now. Take care lovelies!

PERSONAL: Finally able to breath

I'm finally happy with how things are going in New York. It's been a struggle to find a stable job that is going to get me the experience I need and pay the bills too. Although -- I'm not working in fashion. That doesn't mean I'm off track. It's a stepping stone for me so I'm excited to see where this will take me. To be real "money is the motive".

Sallie Mae and Wells Fargo has been calling me about 2-3 times a day. It's annoying and I cringe every time I get a phone call. After having countless tearful calls with these bitches I've come to the conclusion that they don't give a damn about my well being. They want their money. Hey - I would pay you if I had the money. Give me some time to catch up. FUCK! College grads prepare for the madness.

Besides that bullshit I've been enjoying the friendships I've made here. I love the people that I have surrounded myself with. This is important to me because those who are around you will influence you. No squares in my circle. Unless you're a cool one.

But I've got some plans to keep me focused on fashion. I can't leave that bitch. She's my one true love. Can't stay away from her too long.

(will try to make a video vlog in the next week)