1989

.head to toe. Tarte "Generous" Lip Surgeon, thrifted dress/grey knit, Hipanema Necklace, Steve Madden strappys
images shot by Ben Henry

 Happy 25 years to me (!)

Aging since 1989.

Proud Babe

.head to toe. em lipstick passion berries, f21 pleather shorts, thrifted denim jacket, NARS polish Ethno Run Left

images shot by Geneticboi

I'm bringing out the booty finally. Why?!? Because I'm PROUD of those squats. I got a new gym routine that's been keeping me on my toes, literally. 

Lately I've been passionate again. My creative juices are flowing. No procrastination. So yeah, I'm 100% back into styling. Which makes me so happy. It's gratifying to see your vision come to life. Especially when it exceeds your expectations. I've always been a very PROUD person. And by that I mean I've always strived for the best. Expected the best. And sometimes I wouldn't do anything until it was perfect. But you know what?!? Shit is not going to be perfect all the time. And that's okay.

That's what this Summer has really taught me. You have to always leave some room for growth. You will never be perfect. How are you going to improve yourself??!? There's something about myself that I love so much more than before. It's that I've grown into myself. And I know that I won't be the same person in 5 or even 10 years. But one thing is for sure. I love myself more. I love every moafuckin' thing about my personality, body and thoughts. 

xoxo

Extension Overload

Image does not belong to me. 

Oh my GOSHHHH. I am so obsessed with this hair editorial. I mean look at THAT HAIR. I'm so inspired to try one of these looks at one of my upcoming photoshoots (I'm back into styling again, woo hoo!) Seriously cannot believe the detail that this person has put into the hair. Love it when creative people push the boundaries and introduce crazy new trends.

I will update you soon with pictures of my latest work. Keep in touch with me on 

Instagram @zabbbeyy

xoxo

My America(na)

.head to toe. f.21 wide brim hat, thrifted dress, Pac Sun denim, boots(?)

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Who am I? Where do I belong? Where am I going? Do people understand me? Am I doing the right thing? 

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These are the questions that constantly flood my every being. 

I know I have flaws. 

I am not perfect. I am insecure. 

I am what I am.  

They say you'll never have the answers - one day each moment, dream, laugh, cry, heartbreak, death and birth - will all make sense. As we continue to grow there are special incidents (or reminders as I like to call them) in our lives that reveal our purpose. In the past week I realized that the inner turmoil I have been battling with was an ugly combination of self-hate, unrealistic societal standards, the need for validation and the ever so ugly - jealously. Sounds like quite a big beast right?

As a reflective and self-critical person I wanted answers and I wanted them NOW. 

I titled this post "My America(na)". What does that mean? Technically - Americana is any "artifact or collection of artifacts associated to the history, location and cultural heritage of America". Now what does Americana have anything with my stupid flaws and insecurities? It has everything to do with them. People say know your roots. Know who you are. 

I know the American Dream. But what did it teach me? 

It idolizes people, life, class, sex, etc. I am not going to label and confine myself to satisfy the pedestal I have built. The pedestal that the American Dream has taught me to built. 

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FUCK THE AMERICAN DREAM. 

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My CONSITUTION, My America(na)

From every day forward I shall dress how I want to. Sing how I want to. Dance how I want to. Believe in what I want to. 

CREATE THE ART THAT I WANT TO.

And I will not 

I. confine to the ideals of oneself or others

II. live for attention or glory

III. hurt myself with words, labels and images

Signed, 

(WITH MY BIG MOAFUCKA' JOHN HANCOCK)

Zabeth Chang

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P.S.  Love yourself. Share your love, wealth and knowledge. Trust. 

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xx

#Fashion Killa

.head to toe. Top Shop hat, F21 overalls, thrifted camo jacket, H&M stockings, Steve Madden boots

As promised here is outfit number two that I shot while on vacation in Wisconsin. A few days before my trip I went thrifting in Brooklyn and found this amazing camo jacket for only ten dollars. What a steal! It's taken me so long to find a camo jacket that was fitting to my body. I love the features on this one in particular because the buttons in the back. When buttoned it gathers the fabric at the waist which then creates a slimmer silhouette. I love wearing oversized pieces but sometimes a girl needs to accentuate that waist right? =) 

I bought the cheetah print Forever 21 overall dress while I was at the Mall of America. I definitely like the selection at this Forever better than the one in Times Square. Surprising, right?!? I just hate the fact that the Times Square location has almost the same clothing merchandised throughout the store. I found the dress in the sale section and fell in love with it. The dress is quite short and probably appropriate for the beach. So until then I won't be wearing it until it gets warmer in the city. 

It's starting to get a little less chilly here and I'm hoping I can pack up my winter coat for good. Praying to the weather gods that they stop bringing this crazy cold weather!

// 2 0 1 4 - " I SEE FIRE " \\

2013 went by so fast and I can't believe I'm 24 already. Lawddddd. Whatever because I enjoyed 2013. I really did. It was the most spontaneous I have ever lived. I mean I went to a bunch of concerts. Traveled a few places. Splurged on a few goods. Loved a lot of people. That's the life man. That's the life.

Here are a few pictures from New Year's Eve. I spent some quality time with a few friends in Brooklyn. We always throw an annual themed party. This year it was "Back to the 80's". I was really trying not to be a stereotypical 80's celebrity but of course I waited last minute. So all the things I had in my closet could only translate into Madonna. I mean I guess I only own trashy clothing. OOPS.

Looked at my Style Resolutions from last year. I think I did pretty good. I accomplished all of them except for #4 - "Wear more pants" and #5 - "Try new hairstyles". I think I've given up on the fact that I just don't like pants. LOL According to my last laundry day I found that I had one pair of pant. The rest were skirts. Let me remind you it's Winter in New York too! See I just don't do pants. I've accepted that now. As for hairstyles that was a complete fail. I finally learned how to properly take care of my dead hair. It was destroyed by countless curling iron sessions and box dye. Now it's all soft and silky. For one I quit using the hair dryer. Air drying is the way to go! Plus I never sleep with my hair wet. That's just uncomfortable and I hate when my pillow gets all wet. And I quit curling my hair all the time. It was frying the fuck out of it.

This year I've written down my goals. Broke them down into short and long-term. This year I really want to make moves and besides all the fun I need to work harder on building my brand. Time to get to work!!

Let's all have another great year! 2014 I'm readyyyyyyyyy! 

moafucka'

Wow, it's been months since I've written here. Life has been crazy.

I finally got a good paying job and was able to focus on "living life" as some may call it. For the first year in NYC all I did was struggle and to struggle a little less seemed like the perfect idea. I'm not taking any of this time for granted. I always say to myself that I'm only living my 20's once. Which is damn true! What do I have to lose? I'll always be working and paying bills for the rest of my life. Why withhold myself from an experience?

I've always worked so hard throughout college that I never really relaxed. I was never taking any vacations or spontaneous trips. Working two full time jobs and going to school full time wasn't the best idea in the world. But I think that I really like this new thing about myself. I've learned how to dance in the wind a little more. Go with the flow. Scream if I want to.

Despite the usual struggles I've also managed to put on hold my styling projects. Next year will definitley be the year that I make more moves. This year was really about experiencing life. Traveling has been so fun and it really makes me happy. I use to think traveling was too expensive. Probably cause mom and dad taught me to always save my money. Something that I still have yet to learn.

I've decided to change my blog name to moafucka' simply because I'm growing up. I think part of me really wanted to end this blog and move on to something new. But I feel like I've been identified as Mastermind Of A Fashionista for so long that I didn't want to let it go completely. As you can tell the first part of moafucka' still has the abbreviations for Mastermind Of A Fashionista. This has always been a part of me and I never want to forget it. As you grow it's only common for you to move on. I'm growing as an artist and I want my blog to reflect that. Thanks again for still sticking through with me.

Personal: Style Resolutions + Urban Denim Chic Editorial

First post of the year. Seriously can't believe it's 2013. Probably because I'm getting so old. I shouldn't be complaining. ha ha (I'm really not much older than I perceive myself to be)

A few STYLE resolutions I want to play around with this year:

1. Less is more - I'm not really one to be simple when it comes to my personal style but I wouldn't mind giving it a shot. Like I stated last year I feel like my style is gently maturing each and every day. I love it and I'm so excited to continue to explore! Pintrest has really got me addicted to the simple yet tailored look. Btw follow me here!

2. Incorporating my culture - Being a Hmong-American I find that it's really our job to inform the community about the identity of the Hmong people. It wasn't until I moved to NYC did I realize how uniformed or misunderstood we really are. I mean it is great that some know of us due to Clint Eastwood's film but geez we really need to step it up. This year I'm vowing to represent my culture in whatever I wear. Whether it's color choices, an accessory or even a hairstyle.

3. Building heel/pump collection - This one is going to take much more effort. I'm so use to wearing flats, sneakers, combat boots, etc. I let down my shoe game and I really want to try harder on establishing a few good classics that work with my wardrobe. This also means I want to wear them out more! Yay! Must learn to avoid pot holes. Thanks NYC for the shitty sidewalks.

4. Pants, Pants, Pants - I'm not a fan of jeans, pants, bottoms or whatever you call them. WHY? #1 - I feel like a muffin top and #2- I don't like how I look because I have no booty. YES, I am self-conscious of my flat asian booty.  (It's growing though! Working out pays off) But I want to try and wear more bottoms. Especially because there are so many options to choose from these days.

5. Experiment with hairstyles - This one might take some effort but I'm kinda bored of the curly hair that I'm comfortable with. When I was in middle school I would always try all sorts of things. What ever happened? I got lazy or maybe I just care less about it.

Veering off topic - I wanted to share this editorial because it pretty much has a few of the style resolutions that  I really want to try this year.

 

 For the rest of the editorial click here.

PERSONAL: Self-doubt

I don't know why I've been so hard on myself lately. I sometimes catch me saying I can't or I don't deserve this and that. I don't understand where this negativity is coming from. Maybe it's the devil who is whispering sweet nothings in my ear. Recently I just became saved by the Lord Jesus Christ. I grew up in a Christian family but I never really felt like it was right for me. I did believe in a God but I felt like I didn't deserve his love because I wasn't "perfect". Totally wrong. God loves you for who you are. He accepts you. This brings me back to the reason I started writing this post. Maybe the reason I'm having all this doubt is because I truly believe that I don't deserve love and happiness....weird to think this and all but it might somehow make sense if you look at the issue realistically. All I can do now is pray and ask for the support of friends and family. Good day friends!